talent is luck…the important thing is courage.

September 2, 2011

good read by ms. carina santos

http://nothingspaces.com/blog/2011/09/10-things-i-know-to-be-true/

iaadd ko ba o hindi?

August 18, 2011

facebook…

sinubukan kong isearch yung crush ko dati…

iyon oh, siya nga yun…

nyahahhah!

caricature yung profile picture nya…

artist din kasi siya…

graphic artist…3D Max ang gamit…

mahilig din sa animation…

ganon pa din yung looks…

long hair, may salamin sa mata…

nakalagay sa info nya…about me: reserve person…

nyahahahha! ganon nga sya…

tumaba na sya ng konti… 

tinignan ko yung mga picture nya…

merong tumutugtog sya ng piano..actually keyboard…

nakakatuwa…

lahat kasi ng gusto ko…

nasa kanya…

nameet ko siya sa isang school

student ako…

instructor sya…

pero magkasing edad lng kami halos…

bwahahahha!

hindi sya yung instructor ko nung una…

tapos mga 3 days after sya na…

first encounter…

magkatabi kami sa harap ng pc…

nakatingin lng ako sa kanya habang nagsasalita sya…

iniisip ko…

parang may kamukha to…

matangos yung ilong nya…

tapos balik ng tingin sa computer…

tapos tumingin ulit ako sa kanya…

pero wala pa kong crush sa kanya non…

matagal yata akong nakatingin…

napansin na din nya…

mukhang masungit…

sabi ko…ahhh, ganun pala yon…kunwari nakikinig…

pero iniisip ko kung sino yung kamukha nya…musician…?

pangalawang araw, pangatlong araw…

nainis ako sa kanya kasi di nya maexplain ng maayos

yung tinuturo nya…

kailangan ko pang magtanong sa dating instructor…

pero siya pa din ang nagtutro…

hanggang sa nagkaintindihan din kami…

merong instances…isang umaga mejo late…

pag pasok ko…

nakita ako ng dati kong instructor…

papalabas siya

tapos biglang bumalik

sabay sabi niya…

uy, nandito na!

tapos pagpasok ko..deretcho sa table ko…

andon sya…

nakaupo, nakangiti…

parang naghihintay…(parang lng pero hindi ako sigurado)

tapos start na ng lesson…

scene number 2:

super late, nagmamadali ako sa pagpasok…

pagdating ko pawisan…

mahina ang aircon ng room

jahe, sabi ko ang init…

habang nagpupunas ng tissue sa mukha…

kumuha siya ng pamaypay at pinaypayan ako ( actually carton lang)

hanggang sa parang may kakaiba na…nyahahha! (iniisip ko lng yata yun)

pag lunch ako lng magisa kumakain…wala akong kasabay…

mejo ka close ko na sila…mejo lng.

tapos bigla nya sinabi…

kumakain kami dun…kaming lahat…malapit lng…

narinig ko nmn..kaso di ko alam kung ano sasabihin ko…

kaya wala na lng akong sinabi..nyahahhaha!

tapos lunch na…

sabi ko…lunch na ko…

nakatingin lang sya…

umalis na agad ako…

iniisip ko non…gusto ba nya akong sumabay sa kanila kumain?

o wala lng…

hanggang sa…

scene 3…

lessons…

may tinanong ako..

nagexplain siya…

hahawakan ko na yung mouse tapos nagkasabay yung mga kamay namin…

o kaya nmn…bigla kaming sabay magsasalita…

ang weird ng feeling…

tapos yung mga kasabay  nyang instructor nagtatanong kung

ano yung sinsakyan papunta sa bahay ko, kung magkano pamasahe…

25 pesos pa yata nun sa fx o 30…mga ganon..

tapos one time sumabay siya pauwi…

may kasama kami…kaibigan niya…

tapos bigla niyang sinabi…

uy, samahan natin sya…

sabi naman ng kaibigan niya..sige, may titignan lng ako…

tapos sinamahan niya ko sa sakayan…

dahil sa ako ay magulong tao at sa sobrang mabilis ako maglakad…

naiiwanan ko na siya…(baka inisip niyang iniiwan ko talaga siya)

tapos sinabi ko pa na..” dito na yon, sige”…tapos mabilis na lakad…

di ko maexplain ang reaksyon nya…

nyahahhahah! ang weird ko.

tapos yung malapit na akong matapos sa course.

mga ilang weeks na lng yata…

pinapatugtog nya MYMP songs…actually mga love songs…

na ayoko kasi puro revival ang songs ( sorry)

kaya wala akong reaction…

tapos next days sabi ng mga kaibigan nya…

nakahilera sa likod ko…

ang manhid naman nyan…

wala yatang pakiramdam eh…

napatingin ako sa kanila…

napatingin din sila sa akin…

tapos tumingin ako sa harap ko…

hinahanap ko kung sino yung sinsabihan nila…

nyahahhahah!

tapos last 3 days…

pinapatugtog nya ang kanta ni bic runga na sway

nakinakanta ko nmn dahil alam ko ang song…

nyahahhaha!

last day…

parang malungkot ang lahat…

naiwan kaming dalawa sa room..

kasi madami anong tinatanong tungkol sa lessons…

yung mga pwede ko pang matutuhan…

tapos yun nagpaalam na ko…

naiwan sya sa room…

tapos bumalik ulit ako pagkatapos ko makuha yung certificate…

sabi ko lng sige.

tapos mabilis na lakad…

……….

one year after…

yung isa kong friend nag-aral din sa school nila…

kinuwento ko kasi na crush ko nga siya…

tapos…

sabi ng friend ko…

nabanggit niya dun sa naging una kong instructor na kaibigan nya ako….

tapos bigla daw lumapit yung una kong instructor sa crush ko tapos may sinabi…

tapos bigla daw pumunta sa kanya…

tapos bigla daw ako tinanong…

kamusta na daw ako…

sabi nya ok nmn…

nyahahhaha!

tapos magbibirthday na siya…

biniro siya ng kaibigan ko…

magtreat ka nmn…

sabi niya…kapag kasama mo yung isa magtretreat ako…

sabi ng friend ko may something daw yon sa akin…

sabi niya add mo siya sa friendster tapos binigay niya ang email add ko…

tapos dahil nga sa crush ko siya…

nagkaroon nmn ng communication…

through email…

poems…

magrereply ako ng poem

sasagot siya ng poem…

parang malungkot siya na tao…o malalim lng…

hanggang sa wala…

ganun lng…

walang nangyari…

nyahahhahaha!…

naalalala ko meron akong sinend na poem sa kanya

expressing my emotions

hindi ko alam kung nabasa nya…baka hindi…

nyahahhaha!

jahe…sabi kasi ng friend ko magtake daw ng risk…

kaso walang nangyari…

turn off yata sa kanya kasi nga isa siyang “reserve person”…

or baka yun din ang tingin niya sa akin…tapos nalaman niyang

makulit pala akong tao.

nyahahhaha!

jahe tuloy…

nalungkot ako nun…

ang dami kong nacompose na song, poem at story..

na nawala din dahil nasira yung computer nmin…

wala akong hard copy…sayang.

ngayon…

iniisip ko kung iaadd ko siya o hindi…

iaadd ko ba?

pero pinili kong hindi na lng.

jahe kasi…

nyahahhaha!

sana magawa ko po ito :)

April 25, 2011

PAGHAHANDOG NG SARILI

Kunin mo, O Diyos at tanggapin Mo
Ang aking kalayaan ang aking kalooban
Ang isip at gunita ko
Lahat ng hawak ko
Lahat ng loob ko
Lahat ay aking alay sa Iyo

Mula sa Iyo ang lahat ng ito
Muli kong handog sa Iyo
Patnubayan Mo’t paghariang lahat
Ayon sa kalooban Mo

Mag-utos Ka Panginoon ko
Dagling tatalima ako
Ipagkaloob Mo lang ang pag-ibig Mo
At lahat ay tatalikdan ko
Tatalikdan ko

wait for my comeback, pinas…

April 3, 2011

i am about to leave this country fifteen days from now.

Going to other part of asia to make some change, to experience different things, to take some risk and to challenge my self.

I dont know what will happen to me there. Fortunately my sister live there for 5 years now. So, food and place are not a problem, i know she will tend to me and take a good care of me.

I will surely miss my mama. for 28 years she is always beside me. Preparing everything for me. From my breakfast to my laundry. In times of sickness, frustration, depression and fear she’s always there giving me support. She always say “pray to God, pray to Jesus and pray to Mama Mary’ everytime she felt that I need strenght  and to encourage me.

I will surely miss the food that she cooked. My papa is a better cook than my mom (but he already went to heaven) I miss him and his sinangag, adobong pusit and ginataang gulay. With my mama, i will miss her adobo, sinaing na tulingan and my favorite pinakbet. I will miss her kasungitan and kakulitan.

I will also miss moieh, my niece, even though i always made fun of her i will surely miss her. I will miss all her odd questions. I will miss her hug and her kiss. I will miss our disney  and movie marathon. Gonna miss our singing bonding, our games and our storytelling.

I will  miss all my friends.

Although Im scared about the unknown, still im excited and anxious about this new adventure.

Im hoping that everything will be fine.

God bless me and to all my love ones. :)

I love you all!

 

 

 

:D

March 25, 2011

And I like you because when I am feeling sad

You don’t always cheer me up right away

Sometimes it is better to be sad

You can’t stand the others being so googly and gaggly every single minute

You want to think about things

It takes time

I like you because if I am mad at you

Then you are mad at me too

It’s awful when the other person isn’t

They are so nice and hoo-hoo you could just about punch them in the nose

I like you because if I think I am going to throw up

then you are really sorry

You don’t just pretend you are busy looking at the birdies and all that

You say, maybe it was something you ate

You say, the same thing happened to me one time

And the same thing did

If you find two four-leaf clovers, you give me one

If I find four, I give you two

If we only find three, we keep on looking

Sometimes we have good luck, and sometimes we don’t

If I break my arm, and if you break your arm too

Then it’s fun to have a broken arm

I tell you about mine, you tell me about yours

We are both sorry

We write our names and draw pictures

We show everybody and they wish they had a broken arm too

I like you because I don’t know why but

Everything that happens is nicer with you

I can’t remember when I didn’t like you

It must have been lonesome then

I like you because because because

I forget why I like you but I do…

 

 

 

From Sandol Stoddard Wurburg “I Like You”

eye floaters

March 22, 2011

i have eye floaters and it bothers me.

eye floeter is a feathery like spot in your vision..like bubbles that falls or a dust like. it is more visible when you stare at a bright object.

i’ve search for the preventions and what causes this…according to what i have read this things is not serious and it can be prevented. Most of the people have this condition and it will heal on its own. i just need to eat foods rich in vitamin A, C, E etc. And I needto learn how to relax my eyes. 

So i guess i have to cut my time in front of the computer and the television.

Hope this eye problem will soon be gone.

I need my eyes. 

kaibigan

March 8, 2011

ibat ibang klase ng kaibigan…

marami- ram idin akong mga kaibigan…

hmmm… lampas sampu iyon kaya marami na rin…hahaha!

meron akong kaibigan na kahit hindi mo nakita ng ilang taon pero pag nagkita kayo parang nung isa araw  nung huli kayong nag-usap…parang walang nagbago.

meron namang parang kapatid mo na kung ituring…at home na at home ka sa bahay nila.

meron din namang parang ikaw lng siya…pareho kayo ng lahat ng mga favorites.

meron ding kahit masama ang panahon pupuntahan ka dahil alam nilang kailangan mo sila.

merong kaibigan na patatawanin ka sa gitna ng malungkot na sitwasyon.

meron din namang ipararating ang tulong kahit gaano sila kalayo.

meron ding kaibigang palalakasin ang loob mo kapag nanghihina ka na.

merong kaibigang lagi kang naaalala.

meron din namang pagbirthday mo lang saka magpaparamdam…(ako yata yun, nyahahaha! at least alam ko birthday mo)

meron kaibigang hindi ka ituturing na iba…

merong kaibigang hindi nang-iiwan kahit kayo na lang dalawa.

meron kaibigang basta kaibigan ka lng niya…wala siyang dahilan basta gusto ka lng niya.

merong kaibigang lagi kang hihingan ng payo…icoconsider ang sasabihin mo.

meron ding kaibigang di mo naiintindihan pero iintindihin mo na lng.

meron ding kaibigang maaalala ka lng pag may kailangan.

meron ding kaibigan laging  handa sa mga kalokohan.

merong kaibigang magtuturo para makilala mo kung sino ka.

meron kaibigang kilalang kilala ka.

meron namang kaibigang di kana  kilala sa tagal nyo ng di nagkita.

meron nmng kaibigan na kaibigan mo pa din kasi kaibigan mo siya dati…kahit ang layo na ng interest nyo sa isat isa.

merong kaibigang di nakakalimot magtext ng forwarded messages…minsan chain letter pa at di nagsasawa kahit di mo replyan.

meron din namang pag christmas at new year ka lang itetext… (ooops! ako din yata yun nyahaha!)

meron din kaibigang ililike lahat ng post mo sa facebook at magcocomment sa lahat ng post mo at walang sawang magbibigay ng gift sa lahat ng games na nilalaro nyo. (uy! thank you ha.)

merong ding kaibigan na lagi mong kinaiinisan pero kaibigan mo pa din.

merong kaibigang di mo na makita at gusto mong hanapin.

meron din kaibigang di mo akalaing hahanapin ka.

meron din namang kaibigang di mo na makita.

meron namang kaibigang nawala na.

marami talagang klase ng kaibigan sa buhay ko.

gaano man kaikli o katagal ko silang nakasama.,

kadalas o kadalang kong makausap…

kabilang sila kung sino man ako ngayon…

at kung sino ako bukas.

sa mga kaibigan ko…

maraming salamat sa inyo.

composer

February 16, 2011

gusto kong gumawa ng tula

na sa puso ko magmumula

patungo sa iyo

puro makulay na salita

para ikaw ay matuwa

nang sa ganon

matuwa rin ako…

hindi ko masyadong hahabaan

dahil hindi naman kailangan

basta dapat mong malaman

kung ano ang nilalaman

ng aking pakiramdam

para sa iyo…

* inspired ako masyado

kasi nainspired mo ko

lahat tuloy ng gawin ko

konektado sa iyo

marami akong gustong gawin

pero itong tula muna ang uunahin

dahil sisiw lang itong gawin…

a e i o u!

ba be bi bo bu!

lalalalalala!

ahhhhhh!

inspired ako masyado

kasi nainspired mo ko

iyan tuloy!

ang tulang nagawa ko…

nalagyan ko ng tono.

ad nauseam

nilipad

tinangay

nawala

lumipas

ngunit…

may bakas

ang latay

sumisiksik

bumabalik

lumilinaw

umuusbong

subalit…

walang kanlungan

ang bukas.

darating

mawawala

maghihintay

maiinip

hanggang…

sa maulit

ang lahat.

mangangarap

aasa

iibig

magtatanong?

pagkatapos…

papatak

ang luha

ayoko na…

ayoko na…

 

oh! life…

i’ve learned that life is a constant change. it is infinite. it doesn’t stop from here to there. life doesnt have standard rules, barriers, keys, ways, etc. but it leaves choices. choice is what really matters. it is the reason why life is still going on in its process. someone told me that life is a competition of oneself to the life itself. is life really a competition?

life is a challenge. it dares us to go in to the test. it measures our endurance, patience, courage, ability (physical, mental, emotional and spiritual). life wants to see how long we hold in our faith, hopes and dreams. life is not, you standing at the end, accomplished, happy, successful…life is stepping forward, waiting for the light to shine again even though everything is fading, breathing deeply even though there is no air. life is a never ending challenge. 

The Good Dad

February 12, 2011

Papa

        You are the dad that kids love and respect; adore and honor; and, obey and follow. You know that you’re not Superman, but your kids think you are. You show the kids that you genuinely care about them by being involved in every aspect of their lives. You set a good example for them in the way you treat their mother, and others, with respect and dignity. You set high expectations for your kids, but you also empower them to succeed. You are a servant leader in the home, and you make life better for everyone in the family. You love your kids very much, but you understand that there is no true love without accountability. You are quick to discipline, but you spend more time telling kids what they do right than what they do wrong. You are a shoulder to cry on; a helping hand; the rock; and, a good man. You feel fortunate and blessed to be a dad, and you are thankful for your children in every way.

I love you Papa

galaxer

in our secret little place

beyond the galaxies and the universe

we sing like angels playing trumpets

for someone we lost

and for someone we waited

while the moon glares

we made our way to the rainbow

and we walked through the colors

and we danced

competing in the wind’s intensity…

i wonder when will it stop?

but we just go on and on

around this cycle

and you said…

you said it never last cause we are in heaven

you said it never end cause we are eternity

you said just be right at your side

and it will go on and on

in this cycle

you said

and you said

and you said…

but i never believe

to john

to john on his death day

you lived in the past

but your soul linger

in the heart of every

generations that will

hear your piece

your melody tackles

the sincerety of life

it’s sadness and cruelty

you share the simplest

meaning of love

yet leave the truth about it

you imagined life ironically

it’s absurdity and ugliness

but you put all the message

in a song that surely change

the world and inspires humanity

forever…

you died three years before i came

thru radio, television and magazine

i’ve known you

and your music moves me

i saw you wearing eyeglasses

while holding the hand of your beloved yoko

performing and stramming guitar

together with paul, ringo and george

or playing your keyboard

and hearing your voice

that touches the billions of us.

to you, john, on your death day

may your soul in peace

like you want here on earth…

to the genius…

we (your believers)

come together like lucy in the sky of diamonds

swear that we alway remember you

here, there and every where

even in the strawberry fields, forever

like a new born child

coming from a woman’s womb

your music and message

will be fresh in our hearts.

and we always imagine you in flesh

through your great composition.

sail the boat

the lights blind my eyes

i’m looking for you

but only your shadows i see

until it fade…

i can’t longer stare.

in your eyes…

in your heart…

i wanna find my soul.

sail the boat…

sail the boat…

i wanna float

in the ocean of hope.

where i can see the wind…

where i can walk with wings…

where i can fly…

go to heaven…

and find you there.

sail the boat…

sail the boat…

 

drama

the flower said to the wind:

i can’t explain the way i feel about you?

you always sway me with your gentle breeze

and you sing to me your calmness…

but i can’t see you…

and im longing to see you…

cause i fear that tomorrow you might be gone…

i should die…

so that when i perished…

my body will come with you…

and we roam together in the vastness of the earth…

you and me…as one.

the wind said to the flower: (ang drama mo!)

yet he was touched…

giant icecream at apa

umambon…

umulan…

wala akong payong

kaya naiisipan kong sumilong

sa tindahan…

sa ministop… natuwa ako ng makita ko

ang mainit na siopao…

sarap!!!

lumapit agad-agad…

para bumili pero…

nalungkot ako…

dahil wala na palang asado…

hay!

nag-isip kung ano nga ba?

ano bang bibilhin?

nang makita ko ang poster…

isang giant vanilla icecream…

natuwa uli ako!

whaaah!!!

40 pesos…

ayos!!!

mukhang masarap naman ang apa…

pabili nga.

malamig…

matamis…

at malamig

dahil umuulan nga…

umupo muna ako…

dahil basa pa sa labas.

pinagmasdan ang patak ng ulan…

at nakinig sa tunog ng tubig…

parang gusto kong gumawa…

ng isang tula…

ng mapatingin ako

sa kabilang kalsada…

isang music store…

maraming nakasabit na gitara…

ng maalala kong

puro kalawang na pala

ang string ng nakasabit kong instrumento

sa bahay…

isang piyesa na lang yata

ang kaya kong tugtugin…

hmmm…

sige…

gagawa na lang ako ng kanta…

kinuha ko ang dala kong ballpen

at ang antigo kong notebook…

magsusulat na ko

eto na…

ayan na…

nang biglang….

“my humps…my humps”

gumulantang sa pandinig ko…

napatingin ako sa may cashier.

“para hindi ka mainip”

sabi niya

habang kumekendeng

sa saliw ng musika…

gusto kong tumawa…

pero napailing na lang ako…

masarap ang apa…

malutong…

mapait at matamis…

wala ng ulan

at ubos na rin ang giant icecream…

itinabi ko na ang aking gamit…

aalis na ko…

sasakay na ko ng tren…

may card pa ba ako…?

buti naman may free ride pa…

siksikan…

punuan…

pero ayos lang…

may naisip akong tula

“magpapalit na naman ang araw…

tatakbo ba ako o hihinto…?

natatakot kasi akong madapa…

o di makarating kaya…

pero pwede namang humakbang

ng dahan-dahan…

sige,

maglalakad na lang…”

araneta station…

bababa na pala ako

eto na…

uuwi na…

matagal ang fx…

mahaba ang pila…

aabutin na naman yata ako

ng isang dekada…

hmmm…

hindi bale…

masarap naman ang apa…

at ang giant icecream

kanina…

starbucks

February 6, 2011

You said I love you but I don’t care

As If I don’t hear the words

I continued talking

Gently smile while staring to some passerby

You get the cup of coffee from the table…

Smells the aroma, sip a little

I hear your gulp

While noticing your soft lips touching the cup…

You noticed that I am looking at you…

You smiled

I smiled too

Making my effort to look genuinely happy

You point at my coffee

Asking why I never taste it

“I don’t like it “ I said

“but it’s your favorite, right?”

Hmm, maybe not for today…

Your face look puzzled.

Ok ..you said.

I took my book from my yellow shoulder bag

Turned some pages, reading some lines

“Love and be loved” a quote from Benjamin Franklin

I flip the page then decided to put it off.

Then I stared at you again…

You said I love you for the second time…

This time you made it more clearly

And I can’t pretend not to hear them…

I looked at you again.

Stared into your eyes.

I see happiness, hope and future

I Looked into your lips…

I feel the love, the passion, your faith

I noticed your hand

So tightly holding her.

 I stared at her face

And she smiles at me…

And then I whispered, but I love him…

 

 

words of wisdom

December 15, 2009

“You are like nobody since I love you”
— Pablo Neruda

“But I love your feet
only because they walked
upon the earth and upon
the wind and upon the waters,
until they found me.”
— Pablo Neruda

“Someday, somewhere - anywhere, unfailingly, you’ll find yourself, and that, and only that, can be the happiest or bitterest hour of your life”
— Pablo Neruda

“Sonnet XVII

I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way than this:

where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep. ”
— Pablo Neruda

Most young people were getting jobs in big companies, becoming company men. I wanted to be individual.
Haruki Murakami

I didn’t want to be a writer, but I became one. And now I have many readers, in many countries.
 I think that’s a miracle. So I think I have to be humble regarding this ability. I’m proud of it and I enjoy it, and it is strange to say it this way, but I respect it.
Haruki Murakami

Everything passes. Nobody gets anything for keeps. And that’s how we’ve got to live.
Haruki Murakami

• Body cells replace themselves every month. Even at this very moment.
 Most everything you think you know about me is nothing more than memories.-HARUKI MURAKAMI

• I dream. Sometimes I think that’s the only right thing to do.-HM

“’Anyway, I keep picturing all these little kids playing some game in this big field of rye and all. Thousands of little kids, and nobody’s around - nobody big,
I mean - except me. And I’m standing on the edge of some crazy cliff. What I have to do, I have to catch everybody if they start to go over the cliff -
I mean if they’re running and they don’t look where they’re going I have to come out from somewhere and catch them.
That’s all I’d do all day. I’d just be the catcher in the rye and all.”- holden coulfield “the catcher in the rye”

ironic…

November 30, 2009

i’m meeting the man of my dream and meeting his beautiful wife to be…hate it!:D

badtrip!

November 21, 2009

badtrip! naiinis ako
sa nararamdaman ko…bawal ‘to. bawal ‘to. shyyyyt!